#34 - Baby cows move has really upset Teddy!

Poor Teddy! The neighbours cow had her calf today right beside our fence so Schapelle, Mercedes and Teddy watched on and have since claimed the little one as their own. But the calf hasn't fed all day so the neighbour has taken them away so she can milk the mum to get the calf to drink. This is a good idea as the mum's udders look like they are balloons about to burst!

The girls and Teddy watched on and walked beside the fence as they were being led away, unaware that they were going to be heading off to the other side of the neighbour's property. When it dawned on Teddy that the little calf was going out of sight he got so upset! He has been running up and down the fence line neighing out to them; running to the house and neighing to us, almost like he's trying to tell us something is wrong, then running back to the fence. He is still pacing, running and calling out as we speak. He is genuinely upset that the little wobbly legged calf is out of sight, the poor bub!

Hopefully the little calf will be OK and come back as even Schapelle and Mercedes are just standing there staring in that direction.

On a training note, once again Teddy has done a great job at training. He has been good to catch and halter, is calm, lowers his head when asked, stops at hand commands and respecting me and my space. He just needs to concentrate on the backing up signal a bit better but considering it's a new method that Pol Blane instructed and this is only his second go at it, so he is doing well. The only problem is that I look like a dickhead to the passing cars when they see me in the front paddock flapping my arms around trying to get the horse to step backward!

#33 - Teddy weighs in at 600Kg! What a fat guts!

Teddy and I have had a quiet, bonding couple of days. He's been moved about, groomed and pampered, received a few treats of carrot and has been taken off his feed as the grass around here is bumper! His weight was also done today and my estimate was incorrect by 100 kg! What a fat guts at 600 kg.

There is some flat weed around but there is nothing I can do about it now so I hope that he doesnt take a liking to it and make himself sick with stringhalt. There isn't a lot so I will just have to keep my fingers crossed.

#32 - Having a well deserved rest

What more can I say.

#31 - Pol Blane was great!

A long day ending with two injured swollen fingers (let go of the rope Tania!) and what resulted in a very useful afternoon.

Teddy loaded into the float fine and we headed to Gisborne where we used my friend Sam's round yard for the training/assessment. We had lunch with Pol and Deb while Teddy waited in a nearby paddock. As I was eating my minestrone soup I could see Teddy dancing around and heard him neighing to the neighbouring horses across the road, but over all he was fairly well behaved.

When we got him to the round yard at the bottom of the hill he was a little hyped up but I demonstrated the progress I had achieved with him for Pol and instantly got tips to make things better.

Pol Blane is a lovely person with excellent horsemanship skills who really knows her stuff. She can demonstrate exactly what she is trying to achieve and get results at the same time. She is calm, patient and attentive to the horse and owner and acknowledges a student for what they are; providing the necessary information to work and progress with.

The full assessment was done on the ground and in the saddle and it was determined that:

• Teddy is head shy to the extent that it is expected that he may have been hit in the face in his past (my poor boy!)
  
• He is also muzzle shy (knew that)
• He is very willing to learn and learns well
  
• He has the tell-tale signs of a poorly fitting saddle, resulting in past back problems (knew this) and which continues to have some minor influence on him, but mostly mentally
  
• He almost certainly has been ridden at some time by someone using spurs and this has caused him issues
• He has seen extensive use of a martingale or some similar tool which bulked up his neck and which he now carries with too tight muscles (I knew something was up with his neck, just couldn't work out what)
• He remembered the neighbours donkeys and was pleased to see them!
• He wants other horses around him (looks like I will have to get him a friend - maybe a donkey!)
• He's been worked, like most dressage horses have, in a tight frame that has to be corrected as he needs to loosen up in some ways and develop better back strength
  
• His polo training must have been extensive and this has resulted in him having a full steam ahead approach and nothing else. To the extend that he has to be put through relaxation techniques just to get him to walk under saddle. I need a horse who can walk with someone on him not bolt! - high priority
  
• He's had pivot training (could come in handy)
• He actually doesn't understand when to stop unless his reins are pulled on tightly (not a good technique)
• His past training and experiences have to be addressed before he will be calm enough to trail ride
• It should only take a few good sessions for Teddy and I to learn what is needed to get him to a trail riding stage
  
• We both learnt what is meant by self-loading today but Teddy isn't trained in it so he will be retrained at a later stage.
• I can't bend my middle finger properly as it's so swollen!
  

I will put Teddy through his new training methods straight away and work with him on the ground until my new saddle arrives. Hopefully by then it will be time to get in the saddle for us both and Pol will be available from now on to assist with training us.

#30 - Still doing well

We had another great session today. Teddy let me catch him easily, did back-ups and came forward well and learnt to stop when I put my hand up during figure 8's etc. I'm going to have to step it up a notch.

I'm nervous about tomorrow with Pol but alway looking forward to seeing Teddy do well. I hope Teddy gets in the float easily. Fingers crossed.

#29 - Eureka! Yay! We are getting somewhere

As I am having a week off work I haven't done much with Teddy over the last two days as I have been working quite late; leaving and returning from work in the dark. I was wondering how today was going to go as I walked out but I was really surprised.

Straight out into the paddock and Teddy came to me and let me halter him without running away! I couldn't believe it, Eureka! Finally he was showing some trust in me. Granted, it wasn't perfect and I can still see some apprehension in his eyes but at least he sees the halter as something he doesn't need to be so concerned about. And he knows he is going to get the best rubs and pats out of it so it must be worth his while.

As I have been told more than once that Teddy is dangerous I am determined to teach him all the safety rules I can from the get-go, so I've moved him on to the backing-up training phase. He did quite well at backing-up although it's all full instruction now, but I am working so I can just point a finger or give him a look and he will know when I want him to back up. I also tried him at one-step forward moving (only to take a step when ask, no more - no less). He also did fairly well at that too. It is only the first day so I was very happy and I am combining this training with all his other lessons depending on the day. The consistency will concentrate on the catching game and the backing up and one-step forwards.

All in all it was wonderful to see him so relaxed around the halter, totally calm and pleased to do what I asked - he was almost waiting for instruction!

When I get the opportunity I will get Steve to video the "after" phase so I can post a short before-and-after demo on Teddy's progress. Tuesday will also be interesting as Pol Blane will be assessing him.

#28 - We may have turned a corner

Teddy did very well today. I am a bit concerned that he thinks he is meant to run when I go to him, but I could be wrong. Never-the-less when he did run it was for about 5 minutes today and then he was ok (though I was doing all that power walking crouched and sideways! Ouch my poor thighs!)

Once he was beside me he got lots of pats and rubs with the halter and lead rope, scratches on the neck and kind words while letting me put the halter on over and over again when I asked.

He was a much more relaxed horse today and was actually very playful, probably more so then I have ever seen him. Very curious, gentle nibbles on my coat, playing games with his lips and giving me those big expressive eyes while following me around. He is still cheeky though but in a cute way. I really enjoyed being with him.

#27 - I will take the time it takes so it takes less time

Teddy anticipated the game today and I have refine it by reviewing what is being taught and played the predator much more effectively this time. It still took a while but slightly less time than it has done in the past. Teddy is still wearily but the fastest he got today was a trot and the last two send outs resulted in him coming straight back to me. I had some cut up carrots in my pocket so after the lesson/game he got some treats and I used the halter and lead rope (that which is doesn't like) and used it to rub over his back, bum, neck and sides (that he loved!)

I hope I venture into the paddock tomorrow and he thinks, "Here she comes with that great bum scratching thing!" instead of "Not that halter again I better run!"

But I will take the time that it takes so it takes less time in the future.

The nicest part of the whole session was I left the paddock, with Teddy following me to the gate, then I walked all the way to the gate that leads into the house and from the back gate Teddy neighed out to me. I turned back and he was waiting at the gate calling me back. I was thrilled!

I videoed day one of the catching game and I will video day seven and make a little movie of the progress.

#26 - trials and tribulations

After a day of carrots and relaxation for Teddy we did the catching game again this afternoon and it was a good 20 minutes of him trying his hardest not to comply and when he did give me both eyes I would turn away and he wouldn't follow me.

Steve was taping the whole thing and got fed up so gave up filming after this time. As soon as the video went off Teddy let me halter him. Then three more times after this but still he tested me each time.

It was a highly frustrating day that was about an hour long all up.

I hope Teddy is as tired as I am after following him around at a fast walking pace through muddy ground. He went in circles so quickly at one stage I was getting dizzy trying to keep my eyes on him. At least my thighs got a good workout.

#25 - The Catching Game is Bloody Amazing!

I got my PNH Catching Game dvd today and went straight to the instruction part (I'll watch the rest later) then went straight out into the paddock to try it after the first viewing!

I put a long lead on the halter and took it, along with my brother Bruce, out into the paddock. As soon as Teddy saw me he neighed and came straight over and I thought that was very sweet so I put out my hand to pat him. He backed up. I tossed the long lead at his arse! Woo Hoo! Did he chuck a spazz when I did that! He kicked out and ran like hell away from me through the paddock. I followed straight away and kept the pressure on him but all the time wishing I had a round yard (who needs a gym when you are chasing a horse around!) I told Bruce to wait behind to be safe. Teddy bolted around the whole paddock at full pelt for a couple of laps. I yelled out to Bruce that if Teddy got too close to hold his arms up at him and I recommended Bruce stay by the fence. He decided to stay on the inside of the fence with me.

Teddy bolted right towards him! Bruce's hands went up, he yelled "fuck me" then his gumboot got stuck in the mud and he tripped backward but regaining his balance just before falling into the mud. hehehe! I had to laugh! That would only happen to him! (and Crow if she were here!)

I kept the pressure on Teddy, going towards him making sure I was level with his withers when I could keep up or at least facing that way when I couldn't. He was running so fast he was sweating and lathering around the legs. His face was looking aways from me, his neck bulging at me but eventually he started to slow down even though I didn't, and there was less weaving about. I waited to see his near ear flick towards me and it did, then straight after he gave me one eye, and then his full face. At that very instant I turned and walked away. Teddy stopped and followed me! I looked at him from the corner of my eye and he looked puzzled. It was just like in the dvd! I walked over to him and he just stood there and put out his face for a pat. After the pat I kept walking and he walked along right by my side!

I sent him off again just to be sure - first he evaded, then the ear flick, then the eye, then both eyes and I quickly turned and walked away. He followed behind making sure his head was right at my side and held low. Teddy had caught me! I put the halter on in one attempt and he was totally fine about it.

Everything took all of 10 minutes! The first send out took about 6 minutes the second send out took not even 2 minutes. Bloody amazing!

I cant wait to do it again tomorrow!

#24 - Shapelle and Mercedes what in on the fun!

I walked into the paddock without anything in my hands and saw Teddy right up the other end of the paddock near the back fence. I decided that I would just leave him be and walk over to a tree stump near the front gate. Walking along, looking at the ground, I hear the thunder of hooves! I look up to find Teddy bolting up to me. I'm surprised but I just lean up against the stump and he comes to a screeching halt about 3 metres from me then starts prancing back and forth with his tail up in the air. I just lent back and enjoyed the display saying to him, "So who's a bloody show pony today then!" He eventually stopped some distance away and decided to eat grass - just like I wasn't there. He continued to eat and drifted a few more metres away. I watch him for a while then went for a stroll to the back of the paddock.

On my way back, for some reason Shapelle and Mercedes (our very shy cows) decided that they too wanted to hang out with me and started running to me mooing from across the paddock. I'd never seen them behave like this! Even when you have an apple for them they gingerly walk over to you to get it. But when they reached me this time they put their very wet noses on my hands to say hello. Teddy saw this and decided that he now wanted my attention as well so came straight over looking for pats. He even warned the cows to back off.

Whoever think that animals, particularly horses, dont get jealous, are kidding themselves!

Teddy Log #23 - Groundhog day - but in half the time

Today with Teddy was pretty much like an abridged and milder version of yesterday. The only difference was at the start he played with the white bucket for a while kicking it around, sticking his head into it, almost getting tripped up on it etc. So that was when I applied the pressure. He got a little narky, pinned ears back etc, but it was very half arsed. Then in a few minutes he let me pat him. The funny thing was as soon as I touched his cheek my mobile rang! DAMN!

Today I added some walking around and stopping, teaching him that when I put the carrot stick out to stand still. When I stop he has to too. He picked this up in a flash and even when I took the halter off I walked ahead and he followed me, I stopped and he stopped. He got big pats for that.

After I went in and came back to feed cows I went back over to him, all be it without the halter, and he was fine.

Another good ending.

Teddy Log #22 - Teddy took me on - and lost!

This afternoon I put on my gumboots (yes the pink ones!), my jacket and hat and I headed out into the rain and to Teddy's paddock with a bucket of feed, his halter and lead and my carrot stick (minus the string).

Teddy knows the white feed bucket when he sees it so he headed straight over but I put it on the other side of the little river that has formed between my neighbours property and our dam. This way it was out of his reach. I attempted to catch him but he played the same old evasive game, so I upped the ante quick smart and tipped the feed into his rubber trough and stood a few steps from it leaving a clear path for Teddy to get to it. He waltzed right over but before he could take a bite I blocked him with the carrot stick. He paced around, just out of reach, attempting to get to the feed but I continued to block him every time - this went on for a good 20 minutes. He wasn't giving in and never was I.

I talked sweetly to him the whole time, putting out the halter for him to sniff and nibble etc and telling him that if he were a wild horse he'd have a herd leader telling him when he could drink, eat and play with the girls so now he would have to contend with a new-improved leader in me. He was evasive and shifty by trying to pace rings around me, he tried to ignore me and walk away to get me to follow him, he pretended his attention was taken by a roo pouncing through the paddock but as soon as I looked in that direction he went for the feed. Still I took possession of the feed, talking sweetly too him, and tried to reassure him that I wasn't going to hurt him. I let him sniff the halter and lead etc. He wasn't getting the feed and I wasn't getting the halter on him or able to touch him in any way.

Teddy got fed up after 20 minutes and changed tack. He pinned his ears back and raised his head above me (he's huge compared to me). He was as threatening as he could be, showing me the whites of his eyes and turning his head to the side and staring me down with his ears back and body within inches of me flicking his head at me. But I stood my ground. I looked up at him and softly said, "I don't think so mate."

I continued to talk to him and put the halter out to him. After another 5 minutes of this I took the end of the lead and managed to softly stroked his cheek with it. He still had his ears back and looking at me like he was going to stomp me but he didn't pull away. I continued to stroke his face with the end of the lead rope. After a minute or two of this I allow him to have a mouthful of feed. When I blocked him for his second bite the evasive game started again, but this time only for a minute then he let me stroke him with the lead and then, eventually, my hand.

I wanted to keep the pressure on so I didn't allow him to eat until he let me drape the lead rope around his neck. This happened within a few minutes so I let him have another mouthful. Then I let him loose and stepped away. He went for the feed and I blocked him. He took a few steps back and just looked at me so I stroked his face with my hand, put the lead rope around his neck and put the halter on. I was talking sweetly to him this whole time and when the halter was on I rubbed him between the eyes (his favourite spot), then took the halter off and let him have some feed.

At this stage I took the carrot stick and backed him up away from the feed but he was in a new frame of mind and moved his head to me for a pat. I gave him one, haltered him again and led him to his feed, which he ate. I took the halter off and while he ate I rubbed him between the eyes. He was content.

I pick up the white bucket and my other things and walked to the gate, a fair distance from where he was eating. Then I went back to him with the halter in my hand. He just let me halter him, give him a pat and take the halter off again.

It ended on a good note and I feel Teddy understood it wasn't a bad experience after all. Tomorrow I will probably have to go through it all again. We will see. All I can be sure of is that I better get bloody good and reading his bluff or I could be in all sorts of trouble!

I'm sure I'll be fine.

Teddy Log #21 - Flooded and weighing up my options

Its raining so bad here that the place is awash, the dam is flooded, the run off to the lower properties is like a fast moving river, the cows and Teddy are in the back paddock drenched! Even though Teddy has a full winter combo on he must be soaked after all this none stop rain.

This rain has given me a bit of time to think about my best course of action with Teddy and my horse future. I have come to the final decisions.

Step One - I have decided to put an ad out to sell Teddy and see what happens. In the mean time I will love and work with him as normal and consider getting a schoolmaster for myself which can also be a companion for him. If the schoolmaster comes along while Teddy is with me I will work with the new horse and this will give Teddy some emotional rehab time (he clearly seriously needs this - I'm not sure how he got so messed up but I know how it feels so I can sympathise with him). I can also learn what I need to teach Teddy from the schoolmaster and then Teddy can benefit from that when I pass it on. Hopefully this will work and I can have the two horses on a permanent basis. Horses are herd animals after all so he should have a companion when I am not with him. However, if a loving, educated and suitable home comes along during this process I will consider it, but only with Teddy's best interests in mind. Deep down I still feel I can get us through this.

Step Two - I realise that at home Teddy is secure and sees me (somewhat) as his leader but not enough to trust that I will take care of him outside of his comfort zone. Therefore I will step up my own education and his training. I will ask more from him and put him in a lot more situations that he wont be comfortable in until he develops a higher level of trust with me. This will start tomorrow as I know that the rain will not be the most comfortable of environments for either of us and I am willing to get cold and wet to ease him step by step out of his comfort zone and then step by step back into it with me. I think this will be a true test of whether Teddy's issues are what I suspect, but if they are not I will have more insight into how to move with his future.

Step Three - I will use the week I am having off to do a riding refresher and work with an instructor to find my seat again and build my confidence before getting back on Teddy. It's been a while and I would have liked to have done this with Teddy, and preferably on my own, but I think it will be smarter to do this away from Teddy and come back to him in control. Otherwise he will feel the vibe and feed off it.

I hope this all works. At least I feel I am giving Teddy, me and any possible future owner of Teddy every opportunity.

Teddy Log #20 - off for a ride... but NO!....

I woke this morning all geared up to go for a ride. Teddy was wonderful to get ready etc, I saddled him and checked that all was fitting correctly and it seemed fine. After saddling up I decided that seeing as he is always "on the job" when I put the bridle on him that it wouldn't be fair to ride in his own paddock as this is his sanctuary, so I decided to walking him down the road to the riding centre at the reserve.

Robinson Reserve is totally equipped for horses, is free to residence and I can literally walk him there within a couple of minutes so I thought this would be perfect... boy I was wrong.

Walking along the road we had trucks pass us at 80km an hour and Teddy was totally cool about it. None of the cars or the new surrounds fazed him at all. The only thing he took a second glance at was the weird totem pole thing at the front gate of a neighbours place.

When moving the branches from in front of the entrance gate of the reserve, again Teddy was totally cool about it. But when we walked into the reserve and Teddy saw the other horses, the jumps in the paddocks, the menage etc, he totally freaked out! He started spooking at everything he saw, jumping around, running from one side of me to the other, backing up, rearing a little of the ground like he was bunny hopping ... it was like he was in a hostile war zone and he wasn't prepared to fight.

I know horses are flight animals but there wasn't anything to be worried about. The menage and the 3 other horses were very far away, to the extent that I couldn't work out if they were being handled by men or women, yet Teddy was making a total pork chop of himself. It took me a while to calm him and I was thankful I wasn't on his back (I didn't want to be surprised if he flipped out on the road - a smart move as it turns out!). When he stopped prancing but remained on full alert we walked up to the people and I went in the menage with two women on ponies. I had to walk him around until he calmed right down, trying to act casual while chatting to the older guy lungeing his horse.

Teddy did calm for the most part but it took about 20 minutes and he was still on full alert. By this time I had lost confidence with getting on his back. Also all of his prancing around made his saddle settle and I discovered that the pommel was too low down on his withers for my liking. I will be returning the saddle for one with a better fit.

When we got home - literally the very moment we walking into our drive way, Teddy let out a sigh and was as relaxed and as calm as can be; head down, swanking along the drive by my side and licking his lips.

I should have realised that the pacing he did when he first got here was a good indication that he had difficulty with change and I should have eased him into it more; perhaps just taking him to the reserve in a halter and lead and played some games with him. Or maybe just riding him at home. I guess I have to live and learn. And I also have to consider the fact I want him as a trail riding horse which may prove a challenge.

I'm sure Teddy came into my life for a reason, that we are meant to help each other, but it's days like today that I wonder if I have bitten off more than I can chew.

At least I know that the saddle has to be returned.

Ah well, I love my big punky la la horse so I'm not giving up on us yet!