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Thursday, November 4, 2010

#45 - I just want to give up

I'm sick and tired of a lot of things lately but when it comes to Teddy I just want to give up. I try and try and as soon as I think I've gotten through one thing another thing appears. And then I end up back at the catching problem again.

It has rained here for days so I haven't been able to work with Teddy after work. Two days pass and he's worse than he has ever been.

Now he rears up every time I go to halter him. I keep reassuring him and I get it on him eventually but I am always in danger as I have to get my arm around his head and then when I go to put the band around his nose he freaks, gets a terrified look in his eyes and rears up. Today I backed up into the gate trying to get out of the way. Thankfully it wasn't the electric fence.

So now I have a catching and haltering problem. Every time I think I'm getting somewhere I discover I'm getting nowhere. I've left a halter on him now (not a string one) - may as well just admit defeat by doing that.

I'm just so sick of it.

5 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear things are going downhill. I would look for some professional help. I don't care what logo he/she wears, as long as he/she is a true natural horseman. There are some things going on and it sounds like you might be in over your head.

    I was there with Moose, my first horse. We had an extreme trailer-loading problem and nothing I did got us anywhere. It took a professional (Parelli) to get us over the hurdle. But once we cleared it, it got better every time.

    Hang in there!

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  2. Thanks Lisa, I will definately hang in there. It just gets so hard at times. I step forward, two steps back, one step forward, then I get booted down to the end of the street! I am looking out for someone to help I just have to find the right person.

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  3. It's hard and I can understand how you feel. I've been frustrated so many times - first with Moose and then with Cricket.

    It's hard when it feels like no matter what you do, you don't make any headway. Worse is when everything keeps sliding backwards despite your best efforts.

    All I know is that for me, things slowly got better. I had to measure my progress in longer strokes (months not weeks or day, sometimes even years). Cricket bucked up a little in my lesson on Wed and we worked through it and had a lovely ride. Two years ago, I would have been off and probably crying.

    I can't point to the exact things that changed our journey. I just know I've been putting one foot in front of the other, day after day, plugging away. When I look back on some of our early days, it's a near miracle we are here today.

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  4. Your story is what you decide.

    It is determined by the choices you make.

    My choice is to keep Cricket. With that choice comes the difficulties of my particular mare. I do what I can to help her and the rest we muddle through as we go. But it was my choice.

    I have bad days - sometimes REALLY bad days - with Cricket. But I have good days - really good days - that make it worth it. And, like I said, when I look back I am amazed how far we've come.

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